just me

i know its been a while since i updated. i've been adjusting to adult life. its lonely. I don't know how to meet new people who are around the same age. any suggestions

No one ever told me adulthood can be very isolating. good thing i moved with bryan, otherwise i'd be very lonely

I finished my first week of work,
So far so good, but i have to be in boston at 7:00am, which sucks but taht's ok
I got health insurance and a new doctor.
I have a retirement plan, I can't even imagine thinking about retirement.
THe whole work world, makes me tired at the end of the day. I have been going to bed at 9:00pm so i can wake up at 4:30
This is my last weekend living in RI, i moving to shrewsbury MAss.
1 week down of training 11 weeks to go.

NCA exam in 1 hr, i'm nervous as hell.
i dont' think i've ever been this nervous in my entire life.

Took the job at Beth Israel Hospital.
I graduate this friday.
I got my grades today, my lowest is a B+.
all is good.
now to get the apartment bryan and I applied for.

Cambridge Hospital- job offered, but I didn't 100% comfortable there so I turned the job down.

Baystate Medical Center- job offered, I have to think about it. $18.00/hr 10% shift differential $5,000 sign on bonus, no cost to park, evening shift.

Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center- checking my references. $20.00/hr $2.50 shift differenctial. $23.00 cost to park evening shift.

I'm soo excited, I'm wanted.

I know i havent' written in a while but i haven't had much to say because i've been so busy. However, I got my first job interview. I'm soooo excited but nervous at the same time. Its also exactly a job I want. Full-time 1st shift in a microbiology lab. Its in springfield mass. But I was planning to move to mass anyways so its alls good.

Food poisoning is the scariest thing ever.
Esp when its a toxin and not the actual organism. I thought bryan would die. He got food poisoning and I had to drive him to the emergency room at 3 in the morning.
On the plus side i miss a day of school

This week has totally messed with my stomach and my emotions.

Failed a hematology lecture exam on monday by 3 points taht sucked at least all lecture exams total only count 30% of my grade. Failing is below 70.

got a 75 on a bacteria blood culture quiz on tuesday. At least I passed

Took the hardest exam of my life on thursday. I don't know how i did. I hope I passed. The test was something I was supposed to reflect what I did in lab (my lab grades count 60%). It didn't at all. The coordinator of my internship will call me if I failed. So far no call. Oh yeah and failing is below 75.


I've been so stressed I've been getting sick to my stomach. My stomach is usually not bothered by stress. I burst into tears easily. At least it is friday.

sigh.

This past week has not been my week.
First, on Friday my neighbors point out a big dent in my car and its NOT the bumper, its the frame. I'm like what the hell when did this happen. My neighbors then told me a blue/green car hit me on tuesday. Because of where the damage is I just did not see it. I fill out a police report. Come to find out she's one of those high risk divers that is on the state's auto insurance plan. It looks like I may have to pay for the repair. At least it is drivable. The dumb bitch that hit me got into another hit and run on the same day as I reported her. She hit 2 PARKED cars in one week. Did I mention that my car was parked and I was not in it?

Today I realize i lose my atm card. Luckily no one stole it and I'm getting a new one.

sigh.

oh well.

Life moves on.

Current Mood: irritated
Current Music: Somebody told me "The Killers"

Molecular biology sucks big time. I can't imagine how people craked the human genome and cloned sheep and will eventually try and clone people. The knowledge to do so is boring and hard.

To make this subject worse is i have a test on it. gah it sucks.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Somebody told me

I finished my first week from hell. This included studying for a parasitology test that covered a semester's worth of information but it was covered in one week. I'm happy with 80%
Next week is week two from hell. I have a chemistry exam on monday (no break for me after parasit) that I don't understand 3/4 of the material. Next friday I have a blood bank exam which I only understand half of.
My brain will be fried but I still have 10 more months of this.

I was riding in Bryan's car coming back from narragansett because i just had to see the ocean. There was this white ford truck with wheels that were gigantic and obviously not the ones that come with the truck.

The front little visor thing was blue with white stars. The back had several bumper stickers.
1)"I still hate CLinton"
2)picture of the burning towers then saying "This means war"
3)"10 out of 10 terrorists say anybody but bush"


Then there was a picture on the gas tank cover. It was a picture of a pig and said "gas Hawg". I"m like yup that truck certainly is gas guzzler.

The driver was Randy Johnson-esque.

Those who know me, know what I think about this. Even still I still found teh gas cap amusing.

I have realized in the past couple months that I have put on a little bit of pudge. Not weight really, just pudge. I've only gained 2 lbs. My shirts will often ride up exposing the pudge. My arms just look a little different. My thighs have added a little pudge while my calves are still chicken legs.

I hate being self-concious

Three of my good friends from high school are now engaged. I am happy for them and really weirded out. I know they are two years older than me but I can't even imagine getting married. I'm just not ready for it. Although my grandfather has told me he likes my bf and said he would "hold the ladder" if I eloped.

I don't know I think i'm just being dumb because no one seems to understand why I'm weirded out.

I love the movie boondock saints. Despite it being gory and at times having obvious christian symbolism that doesn't go over my head (most religous symbolism does). Like someone told me the chronicles of Narnia had lots of symbolism but I didn't see it. Anways maybe its just I think the two brothers are cute and I find Willem dafoe strangely attractive in drag. Although I tend to have a thing for guys who wear skirts.
Then there was deleted scene that takes place after one of the brothers gets kicked in the nuts by a anti-man lesbian. The deleted scene opens with a cute man totally naked with just a bag of ice on his nuts. Then the brothers' mother calls and plays a crueljoke on them. THe mother has a gun and shoots it off after saying she wants to kill herself. She doesn't kill herself. It scares the brother's half to death. Then the brothers, who are twins ask who came out first, the mother says "the one with the bigger cock and the phone call is over. Since both brothers are naked, the brother who didn't ice his nuts looks at the other brother and smiles. The brother who iced his nuts and says don't start I had ice on mine.
It probably sounds really dumb typing it out but it really is a funny scene that is in the extra scenes.

I just woke up from a nap. While I was sleeping I had the weirdest dream. I went to visit my roomie from this past school year and met her horse. She has a pretty horse, although i've only seen pictures. When we were at the barn where her horse was I also met this guy who was her best friend. This guy however was half horse and half human. I pretty sure there is a word for that kind of creature but I don't remember it. Anyways the half horse and half human friend my roomie was oogling over which doesn't make sense because I thought the human part of him was cute and me and her are not attracted to the same type of guys. Besides he was half human and half horse.

I've deicded i like naps. Besides after playing with my cousins who are 4 and 9 months this weekend and going to the beach, I needed extra sleep. Jake the 4 year old is such a streaker. Lindsay the younger one is afraid of men (other than jake and her father) and her grandmother (who is my aunt). Their parents are my cousins so i guess they are my first cousins once removed or something like that. My aunt decided to rent a beach house in bonnet shores for two weeks included the 4th of july weekend.

My job starts tomorrowm and I find my self worrying about things like, where will I put my purse when i get there, should i bring a lunch or buy a lunch since its at the hospital and there is a cafeteria and if i bring a lunch where will I put it since I'm working in a microbiology lab at RI hospital.

The lastest thing from the 9/11 commission is Saddam Hussien's Iraq was not helping Al-Queda with the 9-11 attacks.
My reaction is like no shit. Al-Queda is a religous fundamentalist group and Saddam Hussein is as far as a can tell an amoral, cowardly bastard.

Saddam, once found gave up so easily, its like he didn't really believe in anything but just wanted to rule the world. Although after the first Gulf war decided Iraq was big enough of a world to rule. Killing people jsut because he wants to rule the world just seems really dumb to me.


Al-Queda actually believes in something and believes it enought to die for it. Although suicide bombings and stuff it taking things to for. If they want to depopulate the planet they have my permission to take their own lives but shouldn't take other people's lives with them.

But back to what I was saying about the 9/11 commission. I never bought that Iraq helped Al-Queda becuase of their differences. Now that the commission said their is Iraq didn't help, I thougth Bush said that is why we went to war in Iraq. NOw Bush is saying "i never said Iraq helped Al-Queda in the attacks but only said there is a connection". I'm like bull-shit. I didn't buy it the first time i'm not buying it now.
more of my thoughts at a later date

I'm feeling good today, even if it is hot. Some days i just get down but I usually bounce back quickly. I might go to my parent's house and go swimming cause it is horrible hot out. I don't mind heat, its the humidity that kills me. I am supposed to hear about a job sometime after today. Hopefully I get it.

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: the music to Final Fantasy XI in the background

It seems like everyone around me is changing and i'm just staying the same because i'm stuck. My sister went to Germany and i haven't seen her in almost a year, she doesn't come back until July. I doubt she'll be the same. I have a friend who went to Germany and recently emailed me and he does not sound the same, and it sounds like he joined the military. Which bugs me cause i'm totally anti-military. If humans weren't so often despicable creatures, I would say forget it we don't need it.
Here I am, living with my bf, which is going well. IT sucks that neither of us can seem to get a job. I'm talking about places like McDonalds not wanting to hire us. I just feel like I am a waste of space, taking up oxygen away from people who can use it and actually do something.